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i received an email from my sister about birth verses
like how there god chose the day and what purpose or what significance you hold in your life
so my sister and godmother both like were impressed by it
and normally i dont do all this things, like chain mail and stuff
but i was depressed
and i wanted to see if there was any truth in it,
if i have any purpose

this is what my verse says

Acts 2:28 NIV
'You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.'

does this mean i bring joy to others?
cause if it does, its kinda 'woah'
cause i think i bring joy to others?
like making them laugh?
i dunno arghhh but i think its damn cool
my purpose in live is to create joy for others
but whose gonna create joy for the joy-creator?

i watched the pursuit of happyness today

Quote of the movie:

And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it.

the show was nice but devastatingly sad and it makes you wanna be able to provide for your family

EDIT: shit i forgot to blog about paris je'taime
VERY NICEE
its a bit like love actually where they have 20 diff skits
describing the different types of love experiences one can have in Paris(Pareeeeee)
like love for a lover, love of a mother, love of the place etc etc
niceeeee
some skits were meaningless and dumb
but the nice ones compensated them by being powerful

there was one skit that i related to,
the protagonist of that skit, is this middle-aged lady who lives alone in paris
she is english i think, or american
and she is in love with paris
and she mentions how she is happy being single
but sad at the same time
cause sometimes there are special moments you encounter
like a beautiful scenery or, just any special moment
and you just want someone close to your heart to share it with
and just turn to her and say,''isnt that beautiful''
or sometimes words are not needed, and a hug is shared
i feel that way a lot
just that no one wants to share it with me

ha nvm
i need to work to buy electronic drums
someone give me a job now
thanks

i am sick of pursuing happiness
cause 'happiness' turns around
takes off its mask, and sadness appears
oh well, i guess one of these days
happiness will find me?
i hope

well, i've got to say my birthday was better than i expected it to be

k well apart from the family law paper,which i ended early, when no one ends early,
but i think i can passsssssss

so after that, the law people celebrated my birthday with me and we ate at es steler(Sp?)
the indo restaurant at far east...and it was good, satisfying i have to say
but same experience like last time la..like nothing new
the real fun begun when we headed to minds cafe to play taboo! and guesstures!
damn funnnnnnn hahahahaha
taboo is this game where we have to describe these words, without using the helping words on the card
and guesstures is like charades!
so when we switch games here and there, some people got confuse and used silent actions for taboo, and words for guesstures

DAMN FUNNY

FUNNIEST IS WHEN ALVIN ACTED THE WORD ''HUM''

HAHAHAAH HE STOOD THERE AND SMILED AND WHEN NO ONE GOT IT, HE STARTED HUMPING LEO AS IN HUMP HAHAHAHAHAHA

then today, i went out with my patricians and others for lan and soccer

woooo

and thanks to tp people for the hugs and SU people for the impromptu song at the bus stop. HAHA

thank you people

it cheered me up, i guess

i want a happy birthday

heavy heart heavy heart heavy heart
but i guess its better for you this way
then at least you will be happy

if its not my fault, why does it hurt so much??

sigh

but you mean a lot to me, so i guess this is where
'friendship lasts longer than relationship' comes in

i am gonna overcome this
paper hearts cant win this time
all along i should have realized
this wasnt your dream it was mine

but i have to say it was wonderful while 'it lasted'
=/

if only
if only

edit: its 630 am and i still cant sleep
i tossed and turn and log in and out of my com for 3 hrs
i hope this doesnt affect my exams =/

i guess the straw that broke the camels back finally happened today

i got a call from my dad asking what time i would be coming home because someone needed to look after the dogs as he wanted to sleep,as the dogs always bark when someone comes home unless someone is there to look after them but i was busy at that time so i said i will be home in 40 mins..turns out it was too late, and he got kinda angry..i tried calling my sis but her phone was off, no surprise there...she hasnt been home before 2am for the past 2 weeks..and my dad has been going on about how its her dogs but she hasnt been a very good owner, about how it always gets pushed to him.

so when i got home, he was fucking angry, and he said he was gonna call SPCA to take the dogs away. i was devastated when i heard that..he has always threatened abot giving the dogs away but he hasnt been specific, kind of like a vague threat..

but the tone in his voice, and the seriousness of the matter, and the fact he gave the specifics, freaked me out...my family dogs given away?

i have always loved dogs, so to get my own dog in about end of sec 3, was like one of the better things to happen to me.

i remember when we first had casey, he was a small trembling thing, and we actually thought he might be mute at first cause he hardly made any noise..after a few months, he started barking and we were all happy...ironically enough, it was the reason he is about to be given away.

he was one of the better frens i had...my eldest sis and i went on about how he knew you were sad or sick, and how if you were, he would just cuddle up to you, or rest his head on your leg, and it was a beautiful feeling, it was actual love, actual no holes barred love. so what if he barks? everyone, everything has their faults...why cant he accept his..

how would you like if your best frens dad decided to give your best fren away and never see him again? in my case, i cant even talk to him, i cant send smses, i cant ask him how he is doing...what if another family takes him in? what if they mistreat him? what if he gets killed? i cant bear to picture anything, i will just cry harder..its painful

brandy has been a doll too even though he has been with the family for less than 2 years...she was always eager and happy.. and the friendlier of the 2 dogs...she is old, like 8 years,,,she wont live much longer, this is the age for her to relax and enjoy....and she is gonna have to move and adjust and cope again?

as i type, they are on my bed sleeping unknowing to what is gonna happen to them tomorrow, i cant bear to picture what they must be feeling....''i am lucky to have a family that loves me'' and the next day they wont see that family anymore?

fucked up, i just hope its one more of his empty threats..and doesnt all this happen at the right time? exam period? how the fuck am i suppose to focus now?

k i cant type anymore, i just cant