k yesterday had to go to sentosa form some church outing...so we all woke up at a horribly early time and scurried down to church..so the evil management split up our 2004 batch which only had 9 into 2 groups of black and white... white consisted of myself,ben,mal,ryan and jason
and black had tim, hobday, glenn and estrop...so we played some lame games...then had the treasure hunt which when it just began,it rained heavily and when i say heavily,i mean heavily...we were all soaked thru and thru and my phone spoiled! so all u law ppl reading this,pls give me ur hp numbers again pls cause i am temporarily using a phone that mal lent me(she is damn nice) k?..kk anyway enough digressing..so our faciliators were nice and eveything so we played and stuff..then we decided to chao halfway cause it was really getting draggy..then half of us went to play pool and the other half played lan..then i went for dinner with jason along with wins and sangeet and came home to my parents yelling at me...fuck up yea?

So quiet
another wasted night,the television steals the conversation
exhale,another wasted breath,again it goes unnoticed.
Please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that I feel that I might breakout of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause I can't read your rolling eyes
out of touch, are we out of time?
Close lipped
another goodnight kiss is robbed of all it's passion,your grip
another time, is slack
it leaves me feeling empty.I'll wait until tomorrow
maybe you'll feel better then maybe we'll be better then
so what's another day when I can't bear these nights of thoughts
of going on without you
this mood of yours is temporary it seems worth the wai tto see your smile again
out of the corner of my eye
won't be the only way you're looking at me then

k today i woke up for lecture..wooo...then i decided to skip APEL because to put it simply,its boring and a waste of time...but my teacher saw me,and i said hi to her...then left..had lunch with sa colin and their cmm peeps...then attended my class for my telephone test..damn cock sia my tutor..haha she put on accent and all for the rest.. for me,she pretended to be this big-shot Swiss from the international hockey federation...then when i asked for her name,she said ''oh,i am mr shepherdson'' i fought with all my strength to resist saying,'' oh thats a very nice name u have''..hahaha but i think i did ok except i didnt ask for their details like the phone number so i dun know how my ''boss'' gonna reply an urgent call without the phone number..maha..then after that i went to play pool with jason(cash cow), sa and her gangstress classmate sia hui ling...and halfway some law peeps invaded,so we played then we left..then i lanned with the lanning peeps...then i came home to the family peeps..and now blogging to all u peeps..k shall stop

i love my sis.
she bought brandy-induced biscuits.
i like alcohol.
do you?
i know i do?
am i an alcoholic?
i dun think so.
but i like alcohol.
biscuit time!

k yesterday i went to my aunts house as it was my cousins birthday..anyway i started talking to my cousin about stuff..and she was telling me that the hotel she worked in recently occupied good charlotte when they came down for the concert...coincidental ah..anyway she was telling me how she saw the group of them and she thought they were sum41..haha so she spoked to the drummer,dino, and asked him'' arent u guys sum41?'' and he replied ''sum41 is here???!!!'' then she was like'' ohh wait..ohh ok'' then he said'' oh no man we're good charlotte!'' hahahahaah damn embarrassing sia...and she thought they were called charlottes web...which is half true cause they named themselves after that particular book..so she was talking to dino cause only benjie and dino were nice whereas billy,joel and paul were kinda anti-social..so it turns out that good charlotte had booked the entire velvet underground for a party and my cousin was invited by dino to come but she declined cause of work...haha i would have fucked work man..then she was telling me that if i had told her earlier we were going for the concert,she could have spoken to the management and we could have gotten backstage passes...damn...so yea..so wasted!

anyway i went swimming with ben,mal and tanya yesterday at safra...only swam for half an hour then it started to rain..after we showered and everything the rain stopped and the sun came out...bah...so we went to eat at the sea sports club...we had to dig up every cent to pay so embarrassing my god...hahaha then we went to mals house and watched shutter after that...haha then came home and had that nice chat with my cousin later...bah if only.......

p.s i know what is prolly gonna come out for the next harry potter after reading the book!!! if i tickled ur curiousity, ask me!!!

k I shall blog now....yesterday i finally attended a morning class after 2 days of sleeping in..haha but even then,i was reading harry potter throughout the lecture with my ipod plugged in..so i didnt hear a single word from the lecturers mouth..so after that had CSA which i found out my grade for csa..mahaha B isnt so bad when u consider what a pest i am in class..and i studied only 2 hrs before the test...k here comes the part of the day that i looked forward to..i went home straightaway as jason was coming to my house first...so we went to pick glenn and we picked up the cutlery and cake..i swear being frens with jason and glenn is the best thing in the world..jason pays for all the cab fares and glenn is just rich..mahaha..so we arrived at melville park and shared space with this other beng group who occupied the other pit..k then ppl slowly started streaming in..and it was getting boring and i realised there wasnt enough alcohol so glenn jason and myself decided to get a bottle of jack daniels..which cost $64 and i paid 4 bucks....now know what i meant by being frens with jason and glenn?? hahaha...jason paid with a 100 dollar note my god...k so we got started early...and glenn and i had a drinking race..which he cheated by giving me a huge cube of ice in my cup thus i couldnt down properly..haha AND I WASNT HIGH! just hyper...so we drank more..heineken and absolut vanilla..hmmm then tim came and i was the event coordinator but no one listened to me...sniff..so we all just shouted ''surprise!'' when he was damn far fucking embarrassing sia...hahaha so we had the bbq and all...damn fun la..but the guards were damn fucked up..wanted us to end at 10pm all..so we continued the party at mals house where 9 of us stayed over...did my outline work there...yes i did my homework at a frens house..hahaha..then tim was fucking high doing all kinds of funny shit..then we left at around 2pm the next day? yea see how much we love you tim!

Ben is damn cool. Mal too. I'm at mals place now. chilling and listening to tim talk cock. Tim's party was a blast. All because of the orgy we had. I was gangbanged by Mouth, Mano, Ben, Mal, Vic, Jill, Tanya, Glenn. Hobday, Anmari, Aaron, Cheryl, Peter, Rory, Shin kwan, Ian, Megan, Jasper, Dionne, Marcus, Xavier, Charmaine, Beverly, Alyssa, Nicole and the birthday boy who came in his birthday suit TIMOTHY. His balls are damn big. The food was great. Cause of the lovely preparers, namely Tanya, Ben etc. etc.

At 8pm Tim arrived, he was shocked to see all his loved ones surprising him.
I am very jealous of Tim.
No one loves me enough to do something like that for me. If only i was sexier. But Im not. I'm just sexy. Without the ier. TEE HEE.

I'm smelling mal's hair now. Smells really good. Wish i could keep some in my pocket.
I am a dick. No actually, hobday is dick. I'm just a penis. Some ice creams ah. I had some just now during the party. Was damn bloody shiok balls. As in literally. TEE HEE.

Have you seen my childhood? I was ugly with 80's haistyle. Now i'm just groovy. I think I have the hots for Glenn. He's curvy in all the right places. Especially where the sun doesnt shine. TEE HEE.

Mal has something very important to say now. Its Love Tanya and Ben. And then goodnight.
Mal is just so cool. I wish i was her. I so want her boobs. And her ever so long legs. like a model. I want to join America's next top model. TEE HEE.

My legs are hairy. It is rather sexy. I saw a guy in the pool at melville, He was filled with lushes long hair. It turned me on. He was like a hairy bear. So wish i could hump him. I love bears. I miss my winnie the Pooh toy. Used to have private moments with it in the bathroom. TEE HEE.


Tanya rocks la.

k today had the subordinates court visit...haha i was on time..as usual..then we made our way to the courts after our whole class met at chinatown mrt...so we sat in this auditorium and watch boring video after boring video...the fun part was when we walked around the courts..we sat in on two court cases..the first one was kinda of an anti-climax..cause the lawyer was unprepared..he kept on looking at his notes before asking questions and the witness was damn blur and kept on avoiding wuestions and answering the questions with questions..even the translator was pissed with him..maybe it was just a breakdown in communications but hey...so we left that..and went to this other court...now THIS....is the shit...a bunch of illegal immigrants were caught and were awaiting sentencing...so they each took turns to step forward and receive their sentences..the judge looked bored to me...anyway he just looked at them,their profile and said 6 weeks 4 strokes...woot...then this guy was caught for the fifth time and was pleading for leniency and stuff...but the judge just gave him 2 mths,$3000 fine and 3 strokes? cant remember..but so sad...he gave his sob story....wife sick,children ill,very poor etc etc etc...if i was the judge,i would have asked him to stay in my house man...so anyway i ate lunch with ruz,shahirah,lisa and ridhwan..and we came to school dripping..or rather ridhwan and shahirah...and many many homework..bah...

as u probably figured,that last entry wasnt by me...it was done by vic who has a crazy fetish to immaculate herself on other ppl's stuff...anyway..i am currently in mals house again....doing shit...tmr is subordinates courts visit day! in serangoon..so we have to go there ourselves as gone are the days with a hired bus...and we have to rush back to sch at 2 for usual lessons...hope its interesting..but how interesting can it be...

hello people. i have a secret to tell you guys.
its like a damn big secret but i really cannot keep it any longer.
if i do i might just burst and go crazy or rather crazier than i already am.
hahahahhahahahahahhahhaaaaaaahahahhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahhahahhaahaha.

Do you all want to know what the damn big secret is?
Can you guys keep it? i really really want to tell you all. but i dont know if i should.
but then again i think i should, i dont want to hide things from you guys. whom i love sooooo much. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i am so confused. i really dont know what to do. should i tell you guys?

okay i think i will just tell you all.
the secret is i love vic so much cos she is so damn cool.

i got new blogskin!!! thanks to my cool sis! who even thought she had work at 6 am,she still stayed up till 3 to help me do!! maha i feel so loved...and if u were a blink fan,you would realise that the titles are all blink songs...mahahahaha i am so in love with my skin..gonna blog everyday just so i can see it...mahaha school in 6 hrs time??!! sux

i am covered in bruises! fools of tooks....on my arm,chest,leg, shoulders everywhere...stupid people who raped me...haha anyway woke up early to play a match at stpats...but i went to the wrong sch..i went to st stephens by habit cause they recently just changed the venue to stpats...anyway i arrived in the nick of time and we played the match...we won 1-0..i should have opened my account for the season...had a header saved and i missed an open goal..so annoying...anyway, after the match i came home and died...woke up at 5 and lazed around...so much work to do oh my god...i wanna quit school...but luckily i am not in sec sch..if not i woulda killed myself longgggg time ago..anyway,i better massage my bruises now..maha

hey i am at mals house now..everyone is alseep except me again...why cant i ever sleep at her house?? bah...so anyway we gathered at mals house to go watch a show..we were hoping for either fantastic 4 or charlie and the chocolate factory...in the end,we didnt watch anything but instead when to eat at this food court..i had beef noodles but didnt really like it...then we took a cab back to mals house and the conversation in the cab was just funny...me and tanya pretended to be german.....haha hans and helena...so we came back to mals house..MUNCHKIN is damn fun!!! haha cool game man...then vic,cheryl and charmaine snuck out of their houses and came over...we watched amytiville horror and they all slept and left me alone....so i am blogging....tmr going sch for project...bah

good charlotte concert! k i woke up at around 1..played dota then went to meet sam for lunch...then mal and vic came to join us...we gave them a lift home then we cabbed to kallang....waited in the rain in the queue...then we have to give up our precious line just to step out and wait for nic and tanya..late bums...so we slowly inched toward the indoor stadium and smelly people and mats were in abundance at our area...so after a case of ''so near yet so far'' we made it in...had decent standing place and we waited for good charlotte to make their appearance then.......''KABOOM'' went the arena and good charlotte stormed in...me and winston had made a bet as what their opening song would be...5 bucks was on the table as i betted on the anthem and he picked predictable....and....i won 5 bucks!...so joel,benji,paul,billy and the temporary drummer rocked our socks off.....i think billy is extremely cool...then benjie came right up to us and tanya and jill went mad and jill started grabbing his shirt and tanya grabbed his stomach..haha i was asking him for a high 5...hahaha i swear he made eye contact with me for 5 secs and winked at me...hahaha but apart form this fat mat who thought i was his long lost fren and he rested his arm on me...and the pushing and shoving,it was fucking cool...and the best yet to come...when the concert was ending as they threw their memorabilla into the crowd,my fren,winston,actually caught the drumstick! haha damn cool...i wished i had his drumstick...hahaha but damn cool...its like what dreams are made off...and it seemed so surreal to see good charlotte in the flesh...so after that,we went to eat at this coffeeshop...then me ,winston and sam played pool a bit then we left for home....mahaha a fantastic day i have to say...

you're feeling sad,you're feeling lonely
and no one seems to care,hold on

today we went swimming! at safra resort....k la kinda fun...we did all kinds of mad shit...then after that,we went to eat at tampines mall's food junction..then we left for our match but while we were on the way there, we were told that if we didnt want to play,we didnt have to because they had enough players already...so since we coincidentally stopped at kembangan,me tim and ben played lan one time ah....haha then after that,we headed back to tanya's crib and we caused devastation..literally...me and ben (mostly ben) broke tanyas closet door...haha we fixed it temporarily and tomorrow we are going back there to finish it once and for all...then i cabbed home with mal...no sch!for a week! mahaha

hello.....i am at mals house now..blogging cause i cant sleep....my mid sem tests were scary...my legal com and econs were ok but my pom and csa confirmed fucked up...my god...for pom,i finished after half an hour cause i just wrote random words...so annoying...then i left the test room the teacher was like ''dont u wanna check?'' and i was like there isnt any point...and i cant take it when a fellow human being suffers in silence...dont u hate the feeling when u see someone cry and u cant do anything but just mumble ''its ok'' and ''things will be alrite''....i hate helplessness in all its glory....oh well...and i just watched childs play 2...so dumb...it was quite unrealistic...cant wonder why i was so scared when i was young...and it hink this song rocks..it touched me in so many diff levels..sniff



And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around

If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years

She falls apart by herself
No ones there to talk or understand
Feels sustained, dries her eyes
Finds herself, opens the door inside
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasteful
You walk along by yourself
There's no sound, nothing is changing
Been gone away, left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can't share
All those words that hurt you
More than you would let it show
Comes apart, by yourself
All is well and everything is wasted
Sometimes we'll feel around and this dance instead can't be down
All the sound of me on my own
Any sound of me again it's time away surround around a friend
I know where I know where no where to runaway
She falls apart, no one there
Hold her hand, it seems to disappear
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

k todays csa test was just fuck...haha could do some la..lets just put it down to that if i am lucky,i will pass...if not..oh well...so after the test,i went to mals house cause she is my number one priority after school person to go to.....hahaha...so we went to have lunch at bedok corner..had hokkien mee...and in between they were treating me like a punching bag....but i was a gentlemen so i took it all in...bums....then i left with ben,vic and tanya...had to give vic and tanya cash so they could take a cab back to pasir ris..i dunno why i did it....yea i seriously dunno why i did it...so anyway i played lan with hobday all again...damn fun sia...then came home...i am feeling damn bad....POM test tmr...have to study for 2 hrs b4 again...fuck man...i need someone to ''look'' after me...like a guiding hand...or whatever la...hope i dun fail any subjects man...

you cant lose what u never had

tenacious d rocks!!!!!! haha k today econs was kinda ok...but the scary thing was before the paper...i was cramming info into my head with alvin when suddenly he said,''eh u got calculator?'' i swear i screamed in the canteen....i started calling everybody,even ppl whom i didnt know i had their numbers.....then mark finally lent me his..damn lucky...the paper was ok la...can pass......all the questions i wasnt sure about i had the same ans as the class brain....so i feel safe....csa? fuck it....tmr study for 2 hrs again only ah....oh and after the paper i went to play lan with hobday all again..when i COULD and SHOULD study..oh well....

k went to watch war of the worlds today! haha ok show la....tom cruise's character a bit unreal la...can escape so many times....haha i like the part where they take a dig at the japanese...when the mad army guy said that Osaka had managed to kill one of those machines,he then said,''i dont understand how the japanese could kill one of those and we couldnt''....haha damn bastard...oh ya we ate at marche today...my first time after so long....haha had rosti and chicken breast with wedges...haha then on the mrt had this sicko chinese pervert man guy who kept on staring at mal's chest...when we block her from his sight,he tip-toe all...fucking bastard sia..but damn funny la...haha then rushed home for desperate housewives..mahaha

yay i just got my internet back like 5 mins ago!!! woooooo...k shall update yall..after school yesterday,played soccer with my law peeps...k la quite fun played against design ppl and winston who played for them...then after that i went to mals house and created havoc with ben and tim..haha we were just hyper laaaa...cycle,piggyback and everything...then we cabbed down to east coast park to bowl at marine bowl...we were first in the waiting list but took forever to get our lanes..we started bowling at like nine thirty??..dunno la but we bowled 3 games and i was damn fucked up..so i decided to play anyhow..haha...but mal played damn well...i think she was on drugs or smth...k then we were supposed to eat but we couldnt decide so we all just left...i cabbed to SAFRA resort straight away to my cousins chalet....and we drank a hell lot...haha damn fun...we had vodka orange,shirley temples and what nots...cause she works in a hotel so she just piled on the alcohol from her workplace...so we were all damn high,and we played twister...haha then after that i contemplated studying since i had my notes with me as i came from school but......no prizes for guessing what i didnt do...so yea came home after that to attend another bbq then back to my cousins chalet to refill my tap..mahaha war of the worlds sua