sometimes after high and amazing times,

like peters party or winstons stayover,

its easy to forget troubles and live for the moment

but then sometimes, all it takes is a simple conversation with a friend

to remind you all over again

not that sharing is bad,

its just that you get reminded about the credentials we lack,

or what life has screwed us on

and whats worse

is when you have something you bank on

something you really have a lot of hope for

something that could take away all this hurt

something you feel so strongly for

something that is the reason you hang on for

when that something becomes more apparent that it wont happen

when it begins to dissipate

when all that your dreams and hopes banking on that something dissolve

when you realise no matter what you do

it just wont happen

you feel like shit

and its worst when you test the waters

cause maybe you know, sometimes people think too much

so you test the waters to see maybe it can happen

it becomes even more obvious and solid it will never happen

never

your just another colour in a rainbow

a colour that brightens up her life

an important factor

but you will never be the sunshine and happiness that follows after the rainbow

but i dont know maybe i am thinking too much?

i hate this phase of life

i hope i am thinking too much

i hope that something or that dream is still possible

because i think it would be wonderful

if only you felt the same way

grrr

k anyway some pictures from peters party

i am so not looking forward to the next few weeks

leadership and conveyancing tests, leadership presentation

=(

hello the lack of updates is due to me refusing to blog emo-ly
because shit has happened, and we all dont like shit

so yes, i am rather down now so instead of updating yall on my life
and giving more 'why-me-god,again-this-shit-has-happened-god' entries,
i am gonna tell a story

Leola Starling of Ribrock, Tenn., had a serious telephone problem.
But unlike most people she did something about it.

The brand-new $10 million Ribrock Plaza Motel opened nearby and had acquired almost the same telephone number as Leola.
From the moment the motel opened, Leola was besieged by calls not for her.
Since she had the same phone number for years, she felt that she had a case to persuade the motel management to change its number.
Naturally, the management refused claiming that it could not change its stationery. The phone company was not helpful, either.
A number was a number, and just because a customer was getting someone else's calls 24 hours a day didn't make it responsible. After her pleas fell on deaf ears, Leola decided to take matters into her own hands.

At 9 o'clock the phone rang. Someone from Memphis was calling the motel and asked for a room for the following Tuesday. Leola said, "No problem. How many nights?"

A few hours later Dallas checked in. A secretary wanted a suite with two bedrooms for a week. Emboldened, Leola said the Presidential Suite on the 10th floor was available for $600 a night. The secretary said that she would take it and asked if the hotel wanted a deposit. "No, that won't be necessary," Leola said. "We trust you."

The next day was a busy one for Leola. In the morning, she booked an electric appliance manufacturers' convention for Memorial Day weekend, a college prom and a reunion of the 82nd Airborne veterans from World War II.
She turned on her answering machine during lunchtime so that she could watch the O.J. Simpson trial, but her biggest challenge came in the afternoon when a mother called to book the ballroom for her daughter's wedding in June.

Leola assured the woman that it would be no problem and asked if she would be providing the flowers or did she want the hotel to take care of it. The mother said that she would prefer the hotel to handle the floral arrangements. Then the question of valet parking came up.
Once again Leola was helpful. "There's no charge for valet parking, but we always recommend that the client tips the drivers."

Within a few months, the Ribrock Plaza Motel was a disaster area.
People kept showing up for weddings, bar mitzvahs, and Sweet Sixteen parties and were all told there were no such events.
Leola had her final revenge when she read in the local paper that the motel might go bankrupt. Her phone rang, and an executive from Marriott said, "We're prepared to offer you $200,000 for the motel."
Leola replied. "We'll take it, but only if you change the telephone number."

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

i was just watching everybody loves raymond
and watching petter boyle act, and its so hard to accept the fact
that he is dead



he was such a good actor and to me, he was the reason why the show lasted
he was so cynical, so snide, but there was an episode, where he broke down
and proclaimed his love for his wife
it was so sweet
i was on the verge of tears



i related to him
i always looked forward to his one liners
its so sad



i wonder how they are gonna portray his death in the show
or just kill the show off
hmmm
watching everybody loves raymond isnt gonna be the same anymore

(1933-2006)

on a brighter note, 2007 brings a whole new challenge and expectations

-sip

-drums

-love

-gpa

-many many others

hello
if there is one thing i need to be thankful for in 2006
and be all misty-eyed and grateful,

its gotta be my friends
and not the ones that go hi and bye in school
the ones who care

but the ones who really deserve this special mention
are the ones who care without showing they care
the ones who notice your down, but rather then have a sit down talk
they focus on cheering you up rather than listening to your problems

and when you decide on telling them your problems without them asking
they listen and offer advice, and their advice is fucked up cause they are trying to make a joke
to cheer you up
thats cool

thanks my patrician friends
you guys rock

testimony to this post, yesterday we all went to jam, went to sangs house to gamble and had fun
wooooooooo

oh my god
i have a bad feeling for this one as well
k this is gonna be the third time
so the fault definitely lies with me
whats wrong with me
am i that unlikeable
hmm